pyratic’s blog

Championed by a soulless media misleading
People unaware they're bleeding
No one with a brain is believing
It's so sad you lost the meaning
Never knew it anyway
Human natures so predictable
I'm a fool to do your dirty work

First there was rain ...

Then there was blood ..

Ever had the feeling that you forgot something just as you've left your place ?

Dunno why . but i get this feeling a little too much these days

ok ok every time i leave my place.

It feels as if i've forgotten to wear a shirt or a tee. As far as i can recall i've even panicked and felt my t shirt to check if it's still there.

Each day feels like i've indulged in illegal substance and wandered off limits.

Waking up every morning is a hard task in itself as i feel a hammering thud in my head which in itself feels like having drank alcohol beyond my limits.

This .. twilight i suppose ,
cause my eyes bleed water as soon as i leave home and don't stop till i am asleep [if i can that is].

This is all because of that dreaded little thing i traded with you isn't it ...

I know what i forgot .. or rather threw away

don't care what you do to it .. just don't let anyone else be born out with it again.

It's a harsh reality to face and endure .. i promised myself
i wouldn't let anyone else suffer.

It started with one thing

curled up inside my head

things started looking red

a life chosen with conflicts and complications

stuff swirling around in motion and its time to goto bed

its what you chose , what you forsake ,

it doesnt give you choices to make

or promises to break.

what i've left behind is what i'll never imagine

what i'll never see

i am not afraid .. petrified

these choices , these faces ...

i'll never see

living backwards

what a disguise i've worn .

feels cold .. feels warm

just a mere indication of what i've delayed ,

what i look onto are mere threads torn apart

and following a dead person till the ends of the world.

i dont care what's written ,

what i see is you wasted efforts looking in the wrong direction the entire time

while i was standing behind your back looking forward.

your death made the difference .. i've grown up

wont stop hoping to see you or talk to you

till then im the same guy .... Pyratic

Till we meet again ...

i see these faces in my mind ..

i hear these whispers all around ..

feels like i can bottle all these so called stupid things inside.

i fail .. miserably each time.

not wanting to let go of all those memories ..

trying to suppress them all in order to act mature ..

fearing that someday i'll lose all those memories .. all those good times that act like the streetlights on the deserted road my life's been.

and a sudden fear grips my heart.

but when i close my eyes and try to look inside
trying to pacify this raging storm .. the captivating pictures and music calms me down.

don't want to open my eyes ever again.

and when its time to go
i hear a whisper 

"Don't worry .. till the time you don't forget who you really are .... i'll always live on inside you"

and i shed a silent tear as i slowly open my eyes to the deserted highway of my life.

P.S : i'll never forget the times of the 20th century .. each little thing in the world reminds me of you .. opens up a lovely page in the notebook i keep.. as i try desperately to hold back each tear.. it seems i have no control whatsoever..

Ok this post comes form a man completely out of his mind
after 31 continuous hours of Whiskey and beer ..

Today co incidentally happens to be the day i started to smoke 
and drink ..

so why not an anniversary !!

here goes the list

DSP Black   [4 bottles]

Smirnoff Green apple [2 small 90ml]

6 bottles of Budweiser

around 10 packs of smokes ..... as always classic milds

well imnt boasting
but today was special.

I got home a Smirnoff 75 bucks worth of booze
wasn't content so decided to go for a walk ..

saw a few fellow mates drunk in the Joggers park
decided to give em company  [big hearted fellow i am  heh]

downed 4 bottles of Budweiser

made plans about booze at night

agreed happily ..

Booze at 9 Seasons a bar near the place

boozed from 7:00 pm evening to 10:00 pm night

phoned home and told people that i'd drop by in the morning
we were having a house warming party with friends.

Boo ya  !!!!!!!!!!

drank the whole stash of whiskey with 2 friends who paid up for losing the bet

"Who drinks the farthest until Dawn"

heh heh

sore losers

ended up paying 200 bucks as a consolation   [broke losers  -.-]

but the booze was nice !!!!!

woke up to see people making plans to have more booze !

alright !!!!

New years extended party [the previous record held by me and Zakir for 29 hours of continuous booze]
so sorry u cud'nt witness the historic feat Zakir by boy   *beams*

woke up ! got 5 bottles of Smirnoff green apple and 3 bottles of appy fizz

downed em again

went home satisfied

with my blood containing more alcohol than hemoglobin   >_>

posting after a long time and posting about alcohol ironic ... 

havent had much to post about except booze

well ..

trying to start afresh .. failing miserably
ending up at the starting line again and again ..

but what troubles me are these stupid dreams i have ... drunk or sober ..
just wont leave me alone ..

not the the dreams are the same ..
but they try to tell me the same thing over and over again .

i left that life ... or atleast i think i did

P.S : forgive my typos .. im still im a lil bit of haze as of now

?_?

guess what ...

The dark black manga has finally ended ..

the characters get to live happily ever after

a happy ending !!

just that the stupid anti protagonist has to die

*shrugs*

I hereby apologize for the following set of events which were scheduled to occur one fine day
but  I won't be able to witness them in any circumstances.... due to a set of unfortunate events.

ok won't hold up on you .. will take less time

here goes the list

*ahem*

first and foremost
it has to be the three sisters

for the wise  ,  you're perfect

for the stupid , you ain't stupid my dear

for the fool , you'll grow up don't worry

secondly
has to be for the friend who you always tend to call up and wake at wee hours

eh he he
well , don't stop believing
and no im still older than you lil one   -_-

mu ha ha ha ha ha

also the little children down at the local pub Ozone
uncle Jason has now officially retired kids
time to come outta hiding and play CS and DOTA in the open  x)

lastly

for the one person who i thought knew me inside out ..
but turns out didn't know me at all .. heh funny
well adios dude .. had loads of stuff to talk
but no time eh ..

atrocity of life ...

being able to feel sad and a bit cheery at the same time.kinda messes with the mindset and causes you to wander off somewhere elsewhere.
i dont know about you .. but i do.

the mistake

shall always remain the same .. the origin itself is a mistake.the creation is a mistake.you'll feel like one.
i dont know about you .. but i do.

Ticking time bomb   

age .. the years gone by.. the days dissolved under the matter called as age. seems like a bug in the system.
memories wiped , lost , deliberately forgotten ... broken.all of it seems like a huge waste of time and emotion.
dont know about you .. but i do

Silly indulgences

love , hate and karma . deserve to be etched on a toilet paper already used. nothing's eternal .. though death is as i believe.causes imbalance in the course of time.dont know about you .. but i believe so.

Collateral

Time .. always short on ... seldom on the same page. what's the point of it ? .. useless practice to be followed rigorously day in .. day out.
left to me .. won't mind wiping my hands over it.dont know about you .. but i'd do.

Perseverance

Religion .. one word bullshit
dont know about you .. but i'd say it again if u didn't hear it the first time.

Fruit of labor

Death . bliss ..
don't know about you ... but i think im ready.

"Why have you all fallen into despair ... "   he shouts ..

"Why are your lives in disarray ? .."   yet again he shouts ..

What be of the promises we made ..

what be of the dreams you spoke of ..

what be of the Big round table i spoke of .... *smiles*

i still hope to see that round table filled ..

yea someday .. anyday ..

i dont care ..

Even if i won't live to see that day .. i want you'll to do me a favor ..
Dont sleep over that one dream like we did over all the others ..